Double standards

I generally have quite a lot of patience,
Be it towards friends, family, children...
But when it comes to myself.
It is way too huge a difference.

I need to be more forgiving.
Be more tolerance of myself.

This sure is tough.
Very very tough.
Feels like I'm gonna break down soon.
F***

Inability is grasping me.
I can't process my thoughts clearly.
I can't think properly.
Which is leading me to not being able to react in a correct manner.

Somehow I know its not right, but I just can't help it.
So so so irritating and frustrating.
Grab a hold of yourself please.
Stop all the nonsensical over processing of information.
Please...

Even I can't stand the me now.
How could others even understand....
"You don't have to face all this yourself"
Hur... Easier said than done.
Sometimes, yourself is the ultimate best friend.